I also made a stupid comment to Ruki that made me think. I honestly ain't. . . doing what i thought I was. Not yet anyway. The person involved in what I said to sis is just. . . a caring, sweet person and I seriously doubt he could. . . I'm not ready anyway. I have. . . a possibly long road ahead of me. . . but perhaps it'll just be better for both of us. . . If it isn't. . . Ruki does have spring break coming soon. . . so I'll be able to stay up and talk to her when I need to. . .