I feel sick. . . friends are telling me to be careful. . . but. . . uhh. . . I feel like I was completely self-absorbed. . . Ok, I've had some bad times these last couple of days but. . . oh man. I didn't consider the second party's feelings involved in this. . . People are telling me well it's not your fault, don't get so stressed out, yada this, yada that. . .but my God. . . I need to do some stuff to fix what I've done now. I'm just a retard when it comes to relationships. . . Sometimes I care so little, it's lame and other times I care so much, it could eat me alive. . . Ugh. I'll work at it better tomorrow. . . I won't make this mistake again. . . I hope. . .