I just dunno what to say that hasn't been placed into this discussion:

crzmama: psssst
MDDah: Heh. Hi
MDDah: Oh yeesh.
MDDah: What a day
crzmama: hesimingme
MDDah: What's he saying?
crzmama: nothing yet havent answered lmao
MDDah: Oh.
MDDah: Well to clue you in
MDDah: Dad asked me about J today
MDDah: And I told him he was back part time
crzmama: ahhh ok
MDDah: Well it led into Dad telling Mom
MDDah: And
MDDah: Mom came in all chipper and crap and asked me why I hadn't told her my good news yet
MDDah: Well . ..
MDDah: I told her i hadn't told anyone yet
MDDah: So then she was like, "Not even online people?"
MDDah: And I was honest. I said I had told you.
crzmama: ok
MDDah: And she had this big old fit cause she was thinking I think more of you and than her and yada yada
MDDah: *more of you than her
MDDah: And I got another frickin "Show your mother you love her and talk to her" speech from HIM
crzmama: ugh
MDDah: I don't need this BS.
crzmama: sorry gf
crzmama: no you dont
MDDah: Things with J are still screwed and now I have those two idiots bugging me
crzmama: they need to just leave you along for a bit
MDDah: No kidding but they don't know what that means
crzmama: I dont think dad realizes or your mother either for that matter..exactly what they put you through
MDDah: They don't realize how hard this weekend was for me; J still ain't coming online much and it just feels like since he's sick of the Internet, then that means he's sick of me too, right? And I feel like I'm on eggshells all the time cause I don't wanna make things worse for him and it just really really sucks
crzmama: yeah I know how that goes gf..but listen.....youve got to think of number one..and thats you..
crzmama: hes asking me if youve talked to j yet?
MDDah: Nosy old idiot!
crzmama: thats why I wanted to tell you..cuz I dont want to tell anything you dont want me to
MDDah: I just freakin' got on, of course I ain't talked to J yet
crzmama: I think he means at all
MDDah: Ugh.
MDDah: It's none of his business. O
MDDah: *I'd tell him if I wanted to
MDDah: But when I do, I get this dang "Be nicer to your mother" speech
MDDah: So what's the point
crzmama: lmao you want me to tell him that?
MDDah: Better not, he'd just bother me even more then
MDDah:
crzmama: I just said things seem to be going better in that direction...........
MDDah: They prolly will, once J gets over this medicine crap and some of the stress is drained off of me
crzmama: he cant hear your im sound can he? lmao
MDDah: I just, dunno, feel like when one stressful thing is running off of me, another starts up and it's just an unending circle
MDDah: No it's this little ding sound
MDDah: And my speakers are down low
crzmama: ok
crzmama: I know hes concerned for ya but whew gf
MDDah: I mean, my main stress for so long was this Englander junk. Then that seemed to dissipate a little and then all this stuff with J started. And now it's like merged, now the parents are causing me stress, and I'm worried about J and just. . . frick.
MDDah: And it just gets to the point where I DON'T want to talk to them. I just want "me" time, where I can ponder this crap out alone.
crzmama: glen19462003: she seemsto be kind of antsy and a little withdrawn still thats why i ask
crzmama: just needs some time to herself is all..she'll be ok..keep in mind that shes been through quite a bit in the last little bit..it will take some time
MDDah: Ansty. Pfft.
MDDah: *Antsy
MDDah: With parents like these, wouldn't you be withdrawn?

Number one. . . Heh. Do I even deserve to be number one. . .? I just feel at the end of my rope. The Internet's so lonely now. Things'll get better though, right? I don't needta feel like this. . . Most of my life was spent in the boundaries of these walls. I only had like four or five friends and they weren't important. Thus my parents care too much, bug me too much. Caring is good. To a point. There should be like an unspoken rule where, if your kid needs you, they will come to you and other than that, leave them alone. >.<; And I still don't know where I stand with Mom. It's like she's trying to add onto my stress by trying to make me feel guilty because I honestly don't care for her like I used to. she messed with my life unintentionally for a year and a half+ and I don't know if our relationship will ever be fixed and honestly that's not a loss to me. And if Dad keeps speeching to me about treating her better, I might not want much to do with him too. One more year. I'm getting out of here. And I might not look back.

Ironic. . .

Mai: No. . . he's slipping away. . . I feel so alone. . . just like when I was a kid. . . Even after I got a job, and discovered Duel Monsters, my Harpies were the closest thing I'd ever had to friends. Then at duelist kingdom, on that boat, things began to change. Those guys began growing on me and, even though they were weird, they were nice. . . And for the first time, I felt friendship. . . But now they're all slipping away. . .

*sighs* . . . Ironic that WB would show the Mai vs Marik duel again this week. . . Maybe that's why I like Mai. We're both lonely people. . .