I think my parents are trying to keep me from being as depressed as I was two weekends ago. I told them what's coming last night before I went to bed. Now today they offered to buy pizza for supper. Lol. Aww, Ruki was on earlier and I missed her. Oh well. I just hope there's some time today when the three of us are on so we can end this. o.O;

This song sorta hit home last night, heh:

Yea

Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
Now I'm gonna have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can’t you see
That I’m drowning in a pool of misery

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

So here I am
I wanna be by myself
And I think you’re ****ing someone else
now im gonna have to find a way
To take the knife out of my back
And how could you leave me
Stranded in a closet full of bones

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

Maybe you could let me stay
Maybe just for one more day
You could help me stay the same
Maybe things won’t ever change
Maybe we could taste the rain
You could push me out the way

Now I sit here by myself
Think about somebody else
How could you let them take you away from me
There’s somebody else
There’s somebody else!