Mm. I just read something that, a week ago, would have raised my spirits and made me go "Squee!" or some retarded BS like that but now I just stare at it and blink. . . Funny what one question earlier will do to a girl. Am I seriously moving on? Has everything Ruki and charlotte and Lily and Siddy and etc etc etc said to me FINALLY hit home? All I know is I don't want to be hurt again. As Charlotte said, Ray always seemed to treat me good (He went into Keno a few times! She met him! He has the online mommy seal of approval!), he was nice. . . and he actually seems interested in me. I mean, I'm not sure but no one woulda asked that question earlier if they weren't interested, right? I'm not doing this though. I will take Ruki and Ben's advice. Let him KNOW what he's getting himself into. I know I can trust him. . . I'm just still uncertain. As for my 'secret online journal', screw that noise. I shoulda guessed. Ugh.