Uh. Yeah. I'm not in a bad mood now. John amused me. Heh. Yes. And writing this short story helped. A lil. Ugh.

I'm just saying. . . James has the hottest voice ever. . . O.o Loverman by Metallica turns me on sorta. . . Omg. Heh. Cause I am what I am what I am what I am what I am. :D

I just woke up. Ugh redoing my typing class is gonna be torture. That's next on my list of stuff to do. But at least now we have a new ribbon for the typewriter so what I type will be SEEEEEEEEEEEN. Ugh I'm gladdddd last night is over. Geez, I was miserable. Twice. *sigh*

Points needed to beat Charlotte: 359,720

Heh. I'm back to the place I was at on Saturday. Yay!

Your capacity for conversation may reach new heights today, and you could surprise yourself with your determination to make a certain point, or to bring about specific changes through a particular discussion. The current planetary transits encourage you to talk big time, and not to beat about the bush when expressing your needs. You will make great progress by being fearlessly honest and staying open to the truth.

I wish I would've met you
now it's a little late
what you could've taught me
I could've saved some face
they think that your early ending
was all wrong
for the most part they're right
but look how they all got strong
that's why I say hey man nice shot
what a good shot man
a man
has gun
hey man
have fun
nice shot
now that the smokes gone
and the air is all clear
those who were right there
got a new kind of fear
you'd fight and you were right
but they were just to strong
they'd stick it in your face
and let you smell what they consider wrong
that's why I say hey man nice, nice shot
what a good shot man
a man
has gun
hey man
have fun
nice shot
I wish I would've met you
I wish I would've met you
I'd say
nice shot


Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."


What type of eyes do you have?
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Curse you, Neopets!

Hmm. I guess I'm going to Grandma's with Mom this evening. Uhh. . . Yay. I get to download Spybot on a computer with a 56K modem and. . . Windows 98. OH YUCK. And it's a laptop. Shoot me nowwwwwwww. Oh ugh.

*wiggles fingers* Ok I'm leaving tonight and I'm going to Grandma's. That's good. I need to clear my head. I don't wanna fall into the depression/anger I was in last night. Anyway. . . I just still feel sick sometimes. . . Like I'm in a swirling vortex that just goes on and on and on. . . and when it feels like I'm swimming out of it, something comes back and hits me and knocks me back into it. . . ugh.

Nejo! Anyone else who might read this and half way care! I'll be on later. I dunno when. Ten? Eleven? Prolly. See ya then maybe.

Ugh I just want Charlotte to come back to Turbo. I neeeeeeeeed her opinion on the latest. I'm gonna throw AIM on. No. . . Actually. I can just turn on Yahoo, be Invisible and grab her there. Yeah. . . I just am still confused. . . I still. . . *sigh*

Can you believe I fell asleep? @.@ I went to daydream and just zzzzzz'd. . . through Pokemon and the beginning of Yugioh. Lol. I slept for like twenty minutes. Woot. And I think I'm getting over my confusion. It's still there. Just not as much as before. . . because of obstacles. But. . . if there's a third chance, I'm for it.

And, WB is showing Yugi vs Joey In Marik's Control. I hate this duel. Poor Joey. Sniff.

nakenai tayoranai watashi ni

makenai kazaranai anata ga sotto furete

sora ha haremashita

Cannot cry, Cannot rely, on me

Will not lose, will not decorate, as you gently touch me

The sky became light

demo

matenai hazurenai yokan ga

iminai youshanai RIZUMU o kizamu naze

konna nimo watashi no kokoro ha sora to onaji BURUU

But

Will not wait, will not miss, my intuitions

Not here now, will not forgive, the carving rhythm, why

This much, my heart is as blue as the sky

can't you feel my body heat

yurusareta futari de ha nai kara

wanting you, needing you

nani hitotsu motomeru mono ha nai

can't you see my bleeding feet

watashi ni ha mamoru mono nai kara

what to do, what not to do

wakatteite hoshii dake

Can't you feel my body heat

The two that are not forgiven

Wanting you, Needing you

There is nothing that I want

Can't you see my bleeding feet

I have nothing to protect

What to do, what not to do

I simply want you to understand

you say you are mine yume demo ii

doko ni mo tadori tsukenai michi o aruite mo

You say you are mine, even if it was a dream

Walking the path that will lead to no where

shiranai kako ni nai watashi o

jisanai hoka ni nai sono te ga sotto hiraite

uso o shirimashita

The me in the past I do not know

The differences that are no where, as you gently open your hand

I learned the lies

douzo

kesenai yurusenai shiuchi de

niganai osorenai watashi no hibi o mitashite

mabushikute watashi no hitomi ha sora to onaji BURUU

Please

I cannot erase, I cannot forgive, the bad treatment

I will not escape, I will not fear, filling up my days

It was bright, my eyes are as blue as the sky

can't you hear my body cries

yurusareta futari de ha nai kara

do you really want to stay

motto jittotsu nagatte itai

can't you see my bleeding eyes

nani hitotsu suteru kotonai kara

what to say, what not to say

wakatteite kureru nara

Can't you hear my body cries

The two that are not forgiven

Do you really want to stay

I want to connect with you more

Can't you see my bleeding eyes

There is nothing I can throw away

What to say, what not to say

I simply want you to understand

gladly I'll be blind yume demo ii

kanawanai inori no RIFUREIN tsudzuite mo

Gladly I'll be blind, even if it was a dream

The continuous refrains of prayers that cannot be matched

can't you feel my body heat

yurusareta futari de ha nai kara

wanting you, needing you

motto zutto tsukamaeteite

Can't you feel my body heat

The two that are not forgiven

Wanting you, Needing you

More, always, hold onto me

can't you feel my body heat

setsuna no rakuen ni ikiru nara

living you, forgiving you

nani hitotsu motomeru mono ha nai

can't you see my bleeding feet

watashi ni ha mamoru mono nai kara

missing you, longing you

motto zutto tsukamaeteite

Can't you feel my body heat

Living in the world of loneliness

Living you, Forgiving you

There is nothing I crave

There is nothing that I want

Can't you see my bleeding feet

I have nothing to protect
Missing you, longing you

More, always, hold onto me

I'm playing a game with Ted. OH this song up there? It's a Japanese love song I read the lyrics of in the CardCaptor Sakura story I'm reading. ^^; Yeah. . .