Heh Elise has the same problem I do-- of feeling unable to Blog our exact feelings, thoughts, etc etc. But my restraints are people who read it and might get offended. Or at least it used to be. Nejo has risen my confidence. She made me see it's my journal. . . my place to post where I want. . . and screw anyone who don't like what I put. Thus explaining the new name. I can't promise you'll like the words but I'm allowed cause it's my journal, the home for my thoughts, feelings and opinions. o.O

I wish Ray was on. This is what'll suck if we do get back together. He's only on an hour or two a day except for weekends, and when he goes to college, he'll like not be on at all, he told me. But by then maybe I could call him. Or write him letters. O.o; It'll work out if it's supposed to. Heh.

Anyway. What is with the blue theme on my journal? Lol. This is the third or fourth blue layout here. . . And I have like four more left to use in future months.